Current mood:	groggy
Current music:	Bowling For Soup - High School Never Ends

Heading Back
Well, I’m on a flight headed back to the UK after what has been an interesting trip. its going to be an uncomfortable flight back unfortunately. The down side of flying American is the in-flight entertainment is shockingly bad, there’s no decent power points and no pissing room. I think I’ll make it a point to fly continental next time. That said I’ve not ruled out trying BA or Delta for my next trip. Yes, there are going to be more trips to the states, more on that in a minute.

I may not have got what I wanted out of this trip but I think I am developing a better understanding of who I am even if I am not completely sure what I want out of life at the moment. Like I say I have 35 years of my productive life to think about it, come up with a solution and go for it. I do know that the US is somewhere where I personally would want to live and move to although I stress I’d personally stick to or at least very close to the large cities. I think its something to aim for although like everything its going to take time and time is thankfully something I have.

The highlight of my trip was my detour on the way home to meet up with status_quo. One of those people who has helped maintain my sanity over the years and has helped keep me reminded of where I belong. As much as anything I shall be back out here to see her and her wonderful husband. The pair of them made me feel very welcome in Dallas as well as sending me off with a full belly for the long flight home. Airline food is not something I enjoy, although the free soda is always welcome.

So my plans for the next few months are now slightly different although not to different from where they were. I shall aim to be back in the states in July time looking at the Calendar. In the mean time I need to focus on clearing my debts, sorting the house and bring my life back to some sort of order. I have the Download Festival to look forward to in June, a night in London at Slimlight in April to celebrate a friends birthday. Other plans include learning to drive over the coming weeks. I also suspect that I’ll reconnect with the S/m and Fetish scene back in the UK. I’m missing that sense of community that has always come with it. So to say life will be quiet in the coming weeks would be a complete lie. I’m gonna keep busy and keep pushing myself forward.

I have just one other goal which I plan to focus on when I get back and that’s a focus on losing another 2“ - 4“ (Inches) off my waist and/or to shift another stone in weight. I am very determined to go in to the Summer looking as hot as I can do. The new hair style has generally met with a good reception and I think for the coming months at least I shall keep the two mowies and the very short sides and middle. As people keep saying, its very Wolverine like, I’ll take the compliment for what it is and run with it. If I can sort the body out to go with it... Go me *grins*

I am going home with a lot to think about without doubt as I think I have reflected on in previous journal entries. The last year and I think the remainder of the coming year has been and will be a period of great change and my sole goal at this stage will be to survive it all. I am planning to continue stripping my life back, the amount of stuff I own I want to carry on reducing. I want to be more mobile, less focused on material stuff and more focused on me and the future.

I think for the immediate few weeks I am going to make myself more unavailable and try spending some more of my free time at home or at the gym. Keep out of trouble, save money and spend sometime relaxing. My single biggest purchase for me while I was away was the Guitar Hero 3 and Areosmith bundle for the Mac and the PC. This is a game which will keep me home and keep me occupied for many hours to come. I also picked up the latest Pokemon game (Pokemon Platinum) for the DS. I think I now have quite the glut of Games to keep my occupied as well. Right now I have on the go Zelda and Pokemon on the DS and Guitar Hero on my laptop. I also have quite the backlog of Books to read which includes ”You Suck“ by Christopher Moore and the NightWatch Trilogy as well as the books I had left over from my last trip to the US and Christmas. So if I am bitchin about having nothing to do people should really refer me to this journal entry and remind me what I have decided that I am setting out to do.

Right now I have some immediate goals to aim for and lots to think about I had better go. UK time its the middle of the night. I have work in the evening almost as soon as I jump off the plane. So the next 24 hours are going to be horribly long and really quite depressing. I shall welcome a comfortable nights sleep and I am looking forward to a night at the pub on Friday. If I feel inspired in the next few days I shall write more.

Once again to status_quo... Thank you oh so much for a wonderful time in Dallas.... I shall be back as soon as I can and as soon as you’re ready to have me!