Current mood:	stressed
Current music:	Pendulum - Slam

Bad few week... Fresh Start...
OK... It’s been a bad few weeks there is no doubt about it. The loss of two friends (sorry the other friend didn’t make it for a full post but RIP Skinhead Anthony who died 20th January 2009) in the space of as many days was actually quite devastating. The loss of Steve forced me to take a leave of absence from work while I sorted out my head a little. The Doctor signed me off with stress for two weeks so that I could get my bike sorted out and move house and deal with the two deaths so close to one another. No... I’m no closer to sorting out my head but more on that later.

Yes I have moved house in the last two weeks and I no longer have any pets at all. The last of my pet my Ginger Tom cat was re-homed about two weeks ago. The lack of responsibility to another animal is quite liberating. Actually everything of late has been designed to make me feel more liberated. I’ve thrown a quarter of my former lives in to bin bags and taken them down to the dump. My plans are for at least another half of my life to go the same way.

When I was out in Cambridge just after failing my motorbike test there was a guy there who’d dropped in to see my instructor. He looked at me and said some pretty sound things to me. He summed up my riding which was pretty accurate and maybe still is. He also said probably one of the most profound things anybody has said to me in a long time. He told me “All you really need in this life is what you can take with you on your motorbike.” I spent quite a bit of time thinking about it just before I went off to Arizona and then when I got back. He is absolutely right or at least where I am concerned and where my life is concerned he is absolutely right. I have to much clutter and crap in my life and I want it gone. The stuff I have already got rid of was completely liberating and was very much a case of waving goodbye to my past as the person who collected that stuff isn’t the same person sitting here and writing this entry.

Speaking of bikes I’ve also sourced my first big bike. I’m now the owner of of a black and purple Suzuki GSX 750-F on a 92 plate. Its spent the last week at my mechanics being checked over and he’s been making her road worthy for me so that she’ll pass her MOT (Annual Road Safety Certificate for those who read this from other counties). Hopefully he’ll let me have my bike back tomorrow. I went to see him today and he refused and then pointed to the white stuff which was laying on the ground and said until that’s gone I’m not having my bike back. I guess its nice to know there are still people out there who care enough to stop me from doing some of the stupidest things.

Well I’m gonna go off... I probably have more that I want to write but right now I need to head to bed and get some sleep. In relation to my head... No I’m no closer to getting that sorted out but more on that in another post.